Average Rut

It makes me weak
Makes me drown
“Becoming normal”
Drowning in the mundane
Stuck in an average rut
Can’t find the exit sign
Show me the way out
Take me to the sweet bliss
Of a world laced with ecstasy
Days optimistic
Nights pessimistic
Back and forth
Up and down
Did I choose this ride?
Did I buy the ticket?
Can I ever get off?
Is this it?