Hey lovely people!
So I wrote this today.
20/11/2022
Reflection
Written after a sound bath healing session at a lovely wellness retreat.
Done with the best group of ladies supporting ladies.
I found myself struggling to let go and relax durIng the meditation portion.
I have always typically thrived in meditations.
Lately, it has been a different story.
This was my poem reflection I wrote directly afterwards.
I hope it sparks in you what it sparked in me.
Be graceful and gentle with yourself for unlearning and relearning.
It is part of life’s ebb and flow.
Negative Zero
Slow, the mind cannot flow
Do, must always do
There is so much to do
Slow? How could I slow?
An expectation I cannot meet
Simply put, I have no time
Zero, negative zero
The self falls to the wayside
Its needs have not been met
The need to slow has been distant
Far down below,
At the bottom of my priorities
A whirlwind
STOP THIS NOW
My mind screams
How could this be productive?
As if looking within
Being with the self
Could it ever be unproductive?
Not expecting, yearning
Not achieving, climbing
How is this wrong?
Why is it that every ounce
Every molecule of my being
Wants to run
I hate running
I’m done running
Slow, time to slow
Time is not my enemy
Time is not my battle to fight
I am always on time
I declare it so
It is my decision alone
So why must I rush?
Why do I long to be ahead?
Miles ahead
Ahead of where I am now
Be here now is heard
As if I could be anywhere else
Here is where I reside
I reside in my vessel
My temple, my mind
This is my home
I must now nurture
The parts of my soul
The ones unconscious
Neglect, reject
It is time
Reflect, reset, eject
I am but a human
Living out my perspective
My view of the experience
I find myself
Needing, grasping
Trying my best
To respect
The ebb and flow
Of life’s endless waves
I am now here today
Making a promise
A commitment to my soul
I vow to listen
To honour
To cultivate peace
Keep faith within it
Inevitably
I will recommit to this promise
Time and time again
An as needed prescription
From my conscious soul
To my unconscious one
Though I know
I am bound to wavering
I will choose this feeling
I will continue to choose it
I will refocus my efforts
Reconnect to centre
For I am here
Choosing myself
Tomorrow
I will still be here
Choosing myself
The world
It does not grant you peace
It is not owed
It is not earned
It is already within you
We must only connect